Tonedeaf in Nashville
Adrift in Post-Traumatic Space
"Why not invent a story: 'The Man with the
Wicked Tree in His Head'? Something will
come to mind: I will die only if I can no longer
invent anything. I am dead when I am silent."
Diggelmann, W. (1979). _Schatten Tagebuch
eine Krankheit [Shadows, diary of an illness].
Zurich: Benziger, p.62, quoted in Dreifuss-Kattan,
E. (1990). _Cancer stories: Creativity and
self-repair. Hillsdale, NJ: The Analytic Press. p. 178.
Life doesn't always rhyme
I didn't reckon reconnaise
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in their minds
A change of heart
And the stage is lit.
And a goodole downhome bubba
and shoots your eyes out.
Country singer shoots. Selling
millions gives him the right to
fire his handgun during a common
dispute with three teenagers on the
interstate over the right to pass.
"Spring in Xizhou, slightly drunk,
At Nannei the flowers are already late.
Somewhere near me the sound of a lone qui--
"I wonder who is composing an elegy?"
The bone-white dead can come to this
A change of heart
Starts the song once more.
- These lines were left on the internet by Bada Shanren
(Chinese, 1626 - 1705) and only recently recovered.
Adrift in Post-traumatic Space
"309.89 Post-traumatic Stress Disorder
A. The person has experienced an event that is outside the range of usual human..."
Nameless bones spread
And there another
slouches free and loosely
toward Music City.
and Josie fastens cute buttons
on an ice-blue top,
and Josie steels herself
for facing the
faceless waiting for
B: The traumatic event ispersistently reexperienced in at least one of the following ways:
...numbing of general responsiveness (not present before the trauma) as indicated by at least three of the following:...
(6) restricted range of affect, e.g., unable to have loving feelings..."
I live in your small dark rooms.
And I wait for a window of opportunity to open.
And I wait. I wait for the shadow
that cannot be named
to overtake us, to overtake me.
settled for various
adjustments to that
crimson paisley tie.
seeking connection he could tolerate
Shaken by 3 Killings
Clarkesville, Tenn. - Annabelle Brown was washing the dishes from a spaghetti diner she had cooked for her boyfriend and two friends when she was shot in the forehead. "People are just going crazy these days," said...
Do we admit this to poetry?
Tsvetayeva recoiled in panic at what didn't fit.
In Clarkesville a country singer thinks
he can do whatever he wants
Selling millions gives him the right
to fire his handgun after a common dispute
with three teenagers in Wilson County
over the right to pass.
And in Bosnia
and in Russia
and in Ireland
the world of all religions and ethnicities is dying
for lack of medical treatment.
C. Persistent avoidance of stimuli associated with the trauma or numbing of general responsiveness (not present before the trauma) as indicated by at least three of the following:....
and 2. numbness
and 3. staring vacancies
overfill the 4. empty mantels
and 5. guttered castles.
And this is me
and this I cannot control,
I cannot fix.
Adrift in Post-traumatic Space (2)
"309.89 Post-traumatic Stress Disorder A. The person has experienced an event that is outside the range of usual human..." B. (1) Th Mauled tots swim rec etr my mind's eye all urr au askew, asunder. ent mat an ic Death on the playground: d i eve "C'mon, let us play ball!" ntr nt Action speaks. usi is ve ree I absent myself some. rec exp And then further inure. oll eri Faraway Rockaway prison ect enc ion ed Enwrap pain. One way s o in ticket to Siberia. f t at Return naked on nails. he lea eve st one of the following ways: ...numbing of general responsiveness (not present before the trauma) as indicated by at least three of the following:... (6) restricted range of affect, e.g., unable to have loving feelings..."
Adrift in Posttraumatic Space 3
"309.81 Posttraumatic Stress Disorder
at last at
last at the at the last
at the last of Long travails
I can rest. Tonight
Tonight I can write
I can write of
wide-spread license the silent
tonight I can drink
waters of memory
Tonight I can feel
bitterness, tears, rumors whitewash
ing fences. Cover
we cannot traverse
"...or was confronted with an event or events that involved actual or..."
Tonight I can see
Waco, that dry pristine air surrounding the cabin enclave,
in a lone truck moving on to unabomb OK City
and here I sit watching hoping awaiting channeling
Tonight I can hope.
Peoria. Black churches in flames and that truck moved
moved on moved on by the moved on by the traffic cop
held the answer.
"...threatened death or serious injury, or a threat to the physical integrity of self or others (2) the person's...
Tonight I can pretend
or we again could play
cowboys and Indians
cops and Robbers
citizens and Tanks
star wars defense and The Other
or I could end
or I could make it
or make sense
or this it is not.
"...this may be expressed instead by disorganized or agitated behavior...
Tonight I can grieve
at the end
at the end
of my at
the end of my days.